"When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer." Psalm 32:3-4
Forgiveness is such a good thing because sinfulness is such a bad thing.
You can almost feel the pain as you read these verses. His bones feel "wasted away".
He "groans" all day long. I am guessing he groaned most of the night as well.
The hand of God rests "heavy" on him because of his sin. His sin was crushing the life out of him like having a elephant perched on his chest.
Because of the guilt and remorse over his sin, his "strength" had ebbed away and left him weak as a puppy.
I know those awful feelings of guilt and shame that suck the hope out of me. You do too!
There have been a few times in my life when I lived under the terrible tyranny of my sins. I felt guilty because I was! And I felt so shameful and condemned I could hardly walk. My legs felt like lead and my heart like concrete. While I didn't groan audibly my spirit was screaming out for some relief.
My last thought at night was about my sin and upon awaking the next morning my despair was waiting to torment me for another day.
Separated from God by my sin, hope was waning and life held no joy.
I tried to rationalize my sin away but the guilt remained.
When I compared myself with others I judged more sinful than myself, I despised us both.
Sin is so terrible and debilatating I could hardly bear it any longer. If only I could find relief!
The pleasure of sin lasts for moments. The pain of sin endures for months. The scars of sin can last a lifetime.
To know the blessing of forgiveness you must have known the bondage of sin.
Forgiveness is great because sin is so bad.